Saturday, February 4, 2012

Avery Bear

A week ago, on January 28th, I received a very special surprise in my mailbox. My Avery Bear arrived.




My special bear was made by a lovely organization called Molly Bears. They make beautiful weighted teddy bears for bereaved parents.  I was only on the waiting list for a short time, so I was pleasantly shocked to receive mine so soon.

I was even less prepared for how emotional it would be for me when I picked up the soft fluffy clump out of the box. The small pink bear weighs 8.2oz, just as much as my Avery weighed. Feeling my baby girl's weight in my hands once again released a sudden flood of emotions. I don't know if I can explain it, but the second I held it, I felt like it had only been yesterday that I'd felt Avery in my hands. The weight of the bear felt so familiar. I bawled for my daughter like I haven't in quite a while. I felt closer to her. She felt less distant. Less in the past. I couldn't believe that a small weighted teddy bear could do that for me. To snuggle that stuffed animal was so comforting. I am so grateful to have it. It will forever be a huge part of our family. A special symbol of our precious little girl.


My precious boy with his big sister's bear.