6 months

Avery was born six months ago today. I really cannot believe it's been half a year already since we saw her and held her. Time goes by so fast. I was six months pregnant when she passed away. Six months, one week, and one day to be exact. I think I will have a hard time when I hit the day where Avery has been gone longer than she was here with us. It's sad how it won't take long to get there. She was here for such a short time. Should have been so much longer.

I went out with my mom today to buy things for our new house. Paint. Light fixtures. Bathroom mirror. Ceiling fans. It made me really happy and excited, but of course, I couldn't help thinking about how Avery should be shopping with us. Our day should have been revolving around her nap and her feedings. I really wish that's how the day was. I guess we will always think of our "alternate universe" life. How the days should be.

Avery isn't here. She never will be. As the months go on, that reallization becomes more and more 'normal.' The monthly anniversaries of her birth get easier as time flies by. But I still miss her like crazy.

While shopping at Kirkland's with my mom today, I found a sweet ornament with an 'A' on it. So perfect for Avery. I am dreading this Christmas without her. But this will be a lovely way to remember her and celebrate her during the holidays.

Happy 6 months in Heaven, sweet baby. Mommy & Daddy love you.